Hello to all my wonderful readers on this New years eve, 2012. First, I want to start of by saying you mean so much to me, your support has helped me get through a lot this past year, and from the bottom of my heart I want you to know I am sincerely grateful for your friendship.
Lately, I've been thinking plenty of all the possible changes that I am going to face this coming year. I find myself pushing those thoughts away, which leave me depressed and exausted. Especially since I feel them lingering in the back of my mind and I am just trying to avoid them by not doing much, but replacing them with other thoughts, which just makes my thought process scrambled, followed by moments of my mind going blank.
I wouldn't say the changes are nessecarrily going to be bad, they are actually positive, but sometimes feel bad because they are going to require a lot of work and adjusting.
Just writing about it, is beginning to cause me anxiety. So of course, my immediate response is to stop writing this post, that way I won't have to think about these changes, but I also know that sharing my feelings have always helped me deal with them appropriately.
Ah, big sigh here. Why is dealing with life on life terms and all the changes that come with it, so darn hard for me to handle? :-(
My advice to others when feeling this way, is telling them to have faith, turn thier fears and concerns over to a higher power, take it one day at a time, not to project about the future and try to stay in the now and let things take it's course. But, for goodness sake ( I giggle as I write the next line) I can't even take my own advice right now. Perhaps, after seeing it in my own print I will. That is often the theraputic benefit of writing and sharing with others.
I take a lot of pride in sharing my truth with my readers. In letting YOU know that I have overcome many things, and with applying yourself, persistence, belief and hope you can too.
Part of that truth for me, is not only talking the talk, but also walking the walk. How can I do that if I am not honest? And in all Honesty, I'm holding back tears right now, I am really scared.
"It's okay to be scared" As I write, and you read this post, I am reminding us of that, and I don't feel so alone.
I wish you all a Happy and Healthy New Year!!
May your dreams come true, and may love and compassion always stay in your heart.