Sunday, September 9, 2012
Sweet Julie - World Suicide Prevention Day
Sweet Julie, you were a shining star, your inner and outer beauty remains in my heart and mind.
I remember your big brown eyes, how your smile lit up a room and the joy you had as you gave me a tour of the college campus you were to attend in a month's time, but never had a chance to.
The ice cream we shared, your golden hair, and your favorite song when it comes on the radio.
I remember all those things.
I also remember that phone call, that broke my heart, the one delivering the awful news that you took your own life.
I never understood. It was then, just three weeks since coming back from seeing you. We would take turns, one summer I would visit you, next you would visit me.
I still have all the letters we wrote each other through out the years, anticipating us being together again and planning all the fun we would have.
They were great times, we would stay up all till wee hours of the night talking, we went to the beach, we danced, laughed, shopped, sang and prayed together.
I didn't see any signs or maybe I did not know what the signs were. I often wondered why didn't you just pick up the phone and call me.
I will never understand, but I've learned to let it go, because, I just want to remember you the way you were.
Sweet Julie, spreading sunshine every where you went. That is how I will always remember you most.
Nearly 30 years ago my cousin Julie commited suicide.
Perhaps thier were signs, I don't know. During that time there was a huge lack of information, awareness and stigma surrounding suicidal issues.
Today, although, many of the same issues remain and we have a long way to go, things are beginning to change.
The more we spread awareness on suicide and the more we speak up, educate ourselves and the public, the less stigma there will be and the more lives there will be saved.